A late “Thank you” in acknowledgment of Thanksgiving goes out to all my angels. My Internet was out for most of Friday and Saturday so it wasn’t possible to publicly express my deepest gratitude to those who helped sustain me through my dependency trial in the most timely manner. My dependency trial felt more like a shared trial though, than solo. It is refreshing to know that there are many intelligent people out there, who are not necessarily attorneys or judges, that use common sense and strong analytical skills to really help break down a legal case.
On Thanksgiving I reflected very much on last year’s very lonely holiday. Last year, my home was quiet and I could only pray that my child was alive. I can totally feel the pain that other parents in similar, unfortunate situations are enduring. PLEASE, hang in there! If you are innocent of false allegations I pray you don’t give up. Yes, of course it is easier for me to say now that my child is back home, but in the same way I urge you today (and tomorrow) to fight for your child’s freedom, I also had strangers encourage me during my nightmare.
I read a Facebook post recently on suicidal tendencies of parents going through dependency trials all over the world. Suicide is something that I am certain some folks may contemplate, given the horrific feelings one may acquire during traumatic removal/kidnapping of your child/children. I tell you this, go out with a bang if you are going to exit. Don’t make it easy for them. I am not saying go out and hurt anyone, but go out and fight with all your might! If you love your child, I don’t need to tell you to never give up, you should have that attitude from the get-go. But if anything I hope a few of my written words will accidentally run across your computer screen and help bring you back into focus of what is important…your angel! Dependency court, custody battle, cross-border kidnapping, whatever it is, you must not give up. If you have the courage to fight for your child, your child will have the courage to endure because you are blood.
If you think exiting this world is going to make the pain go away you are wrong. You will increase the pain of your child that was counting on you. Prepare, read, speak up, you have nothing to be ashamed of if you haven’t done anything wrong. You know who you are and your child does too. Don’t become what they want you to become when they set you up in their environment, the one where you are the bad guy. The epidemic of failed child protection practices has reached such a low point that you are guaranteed to run into another person that shares your pain. Connect with him/her. Encourage each other, and keep in the fight.
I am thankful that I have an opportunity to speak up for what happened to my family and to other families that I now call friends. I have the privilege of connecting with some of you as a result of it. I am happy to feel a responsibility to remind everyone that we share a duty to protect all of OUR children. And boy, am I blessed to have held my child in my arms this holiday and weep because of pure adoration and appreciation. To me, it was a miracle. I still can’t believe it sometimes when I see her sleeping in her bedroom. I remember walking in to an empty bedroom every night of a ten-month period and cry myself to sleep. I know some of you going through similar situations do the same. I weep with you because I just cannot fully enjoy myself with these precious moments knowing you are suffering. Everything has changed.
I place my hand over this blog entry and I pray that you are blessed with an everlasting fire in your spirit to do what is right for your children. I pray that you will take care of yourself properly so that you come in to your next hearing with your head held high, bearing the Full Armor of God, the power of truth on your side, and the humility to listen and speak only that which is righteous.
I am thankful that God has chosen you, the warrior guardian, to fight for your child/children. Do the right thing.
For all children, Lynn Moscoso